losing loved ones. regrets. stepping in dog vomit, which is actually also dog poo, as the dog who vomited also ate the other dog's poo. burying pets in August. hard-packed clay soil (which makes burying pets in August a hellish task, but causes me pain in many other ways too). cancer of all sorts but most especially: lung cancer, leukemia, pancreatic cancer, and my brca1 mutation.